Jelousy or unconfidence?

to be honest,I have been always stalking this person since around 4 months.

well.stalking might not the suitable word to explain it,but

I do always watching him/her.the way he/she talk,dressed and his/her activities.

I'm not following him/her around,but I grab any chances I saw him/her.or,I might get caught,don't I?

or I already did?just that I don't realize it.perhaps.

there's a thing or two that I got from this stalking mission.
but,I am terribly sleepy.so gotta go now..